Even though I have received messages not to give in to the news, numbers, conspiracy theories I still have residual, neurotic needs to know. When I was sick 3 times between the beginning of December to the beginning of February, did I have the coronavirus? The answer came to me that it doesn't matter, I don't need to know. Perhaps I need to be more present?
If I do come down with the coronavirus in the future? Why? There has to be a deeper meaning. The answer is personal and spiritual growth and to work on my ego. After all, we are on this planet, this earthly plane, in these weird human space suits for spiritual growth. But most of us forget that.
The gift of the coronavirus is presence. More than ever we don't know what tomorrow will bring much less a month from now, or a few months from now, or a year from now, or a few years from now. So we have no other choice than to be present which is how we should be anyway.
My ears have been bothering me for months. Why? Well, they are not bothering me in this moment, so it doesn't matter. Maybe if my physical body does bother me, I just need to bring presence into which ever body part is bothering me at that moment.
There are a few classes I want to take, well I can't take them today so it doesn't matter. How freeing to not be making plans for the fall or 2021. So many institutions that have bound us, put us in a violent, suppressive, oppressive, repressive, depressive boxes are going to fall. How freeing. How freeing to simply be present. How freeing to simply be.
When we are not being present we are also putting others around us in a box. We all have the ability to change. Do you want someone elses lack of presence keeping you in a box? Do you want your lack of presence keeping someone around you from changing for the highest good?
We don't know where the coronavirus came from. Did it come from a bat or is it man made? Regardless of where it came from is it political? Is it being used to manipulate us? It doesn't matter. Trump, Republicans, Democrats, The CIA, The New World Order, and The Wizard of Oz are only so powerful. Who is powerful is The Universe, God(s), Angels, Mother Earth, Love. They are whats true and authentic and powerful and what will take care of us so we can be present and love.
The economy may suffer but look at this shift with an open mind. How can I be more resourceful? More creative? More Compassionate? It is ok to make money during this time and not feel survivors guilt because you can be kind, caring, loving, discerning, compassionate, and generous. Perhaps the greatest gratitude for our gifts is generosity. Looting may take place but is it possible that we can stop it before it starts? By checking on those we love to make sure they have enough food to eat. Or if we don't have enough food to eat, dissolving shame and reaching out and saying "Hey, I don't have enough food to eat, can you help me or do you know someone who can?" If there is anyone who is reading this that can not afford to eat right now. Please let someone know. Maybe they can help you, if not, maybe they know someone who can. We are all one.